A Glow in the Dark Full Moon

As I stepped foot into a local civilian hospital this morning, I immediately felt lost. I had to go to administration to fill out more paperwork and after, they kindly directed me towards radiology. They called me back to ask if I would like the contrast as just water or lemonade. You mean I have a choice? WOW! I tried it as water...but it wasn't pure enough for my taste buds so I opted to flavor it with more chemicals and sugar lemonade powder. Remembering that I have been down this road before, I decided it was easier to chug it and drain my bladder half a dozen times before I went in for the scan. The kids went with today and were asking why they couldnt drink from my big cup. "They put some stuff in here and it makes my insides glow in the dark so when I go through a machine the Dr can see everything inside me." I'm not too bad at putting it in easy terms. An hour later they called me back and laid me down to start the IV for contrast. She was either sent a memo from Portsmouth Naval or flat out read my face as I walked in. The staff was great...that makes all these visits easier. They put me in a tube that talked to me "Hold your breath.....breathe. Do not swallow. Hold your breath.....breathe." It was quite a demanding little machine. I need to get back into yoga for breathing control just for that automated voice lady since I'll be visiting her quite often. The contrast was different this time. It wasn't a one time feeling...it was constant drip when they started it. Do you know what it feels like to pee your pants for a few minutes? I do. ;)

This Friday I go in for the biopsy of my bone marrow. A great opportunity for me to moon the Dr and him not be offended. I have my PFT and MUGA scheduled for the end of next week. I can't start chemo until those results get back to my Oncologist so I'm assuming my start date will be pushed back some.

Off to sleep again. I cat nap often these days. I need to be ready for the Girls Gone Godly study tonight. I'm excited because we will be talking about "Worry Warts"....you know, something that applies to none of my family or friends...

Worry never empties tomorrow of sorrow, but it does empty it of its strength. Don't let anyone rob you of your confidence in God. Know His Word. Hold on to His hand. He will make your impossible mission possible and your life so much more than bearable. -Barbara Johnson